Ultrasounds are supposed to be exciting things right? You get to see your baby, what could be better than that?
Unfortunately I don't fit in that club anymore. I was terrified with each of the 5 ultrasounds I had with Erin. I was very scared with my first ultrasound with Reeses, and I am definitely scared for tomorrow.
He's been moving pretty good today, but...that's not a guarantee. What if he has spina bifida? What if he doesn't have any kidneys? What if he has a hole in his diaphragm that is allowing his bowels into his chest cavity and preventing lung development? What if he's got a large hole in his heart, or enlarged ventricles in his brain? What if.....? ((I have known women [one personally, the other online friends] who have had these happen...and many many more))
I keep going in circles. I keep reminding myself that each of those problems has a very SMALL chance of happening. But...so did Cora's cord accident.
Ugh. I think I need to stop thinking.
((in case you had forgotten the ultrasound is scheduled for 1:30pm mountain time tomorrow))
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