Thursday, October 9, 2008

Pre-ultrasound anxiety

Ultrasounds are supposed to be exciting things right? You get to see your baby, what could be better than that?

Unfortunately I don't fit in that club anymore. I was terrified with each of the 5 ultrasounds I had with Erin. I was very scared with my first ultrasound with Reeses, and I am definitely scared for tomorrow.

He's been moving pretty good today, but...that's not a guarantee. What if he has spina bifida? What if he doesn't have any kidneys? What if he has a hole in his diaphragm that is allowing his bowels into his chest cavity and preventing lung development? What if he's got a large hole in his heart, or enlarged ventricles in his brain? What if.....? ((I have known women [one personally, the other online friends] who have had these happen...and many many more))

I keep going in circles. I keep reminding myself that each of those problems has a very SMALL chance of happening. did Cora's cord accident.

Ugh. I think I need to stop thinking.

((in case you had forgotten the ultrasound is scheduled for 1:30pm mountain time tomorrow))


HRHSpence said...

Be calm, my child. You are worrying about other's problems and not your own. Things will work out.

jenny said...

Can't worry about something that probably won't happen. You've got a lot of people who care about you. Everything will be just fine.

Anonymous said...

Oh honey... You make me wish I was there to give you a hug. It's so easy for all of us to say, "Silly girl, stop worrying." It's so easy for us to try to minimize your fears, but I know you. I know how big these worries are for you. Just know, I'll worry with you, BUT! Worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair. It gives you something to do to pass the time, but it gets you absolutely nowhere, and isn't productive in the least bit.

It's going to work out the way Heavenly Father says it's going to work out. There's no sense in trying to manipulate it, change it, or yes, even worry about it. He's got this one. Don't forget the promises He's made to you, lovely one. Have faith in Him. It's all He asks.

Jared Hill said...

Ultrasounds can be scary. We are thinking about you and praying for you.

Kari said...

It's okay to worry, just don't let your worry consume you. Don't be afraid to ask for a blessing now, just to give you some peace. Turn to your Heavenly father with your fears, and He will help you through them. Other than your baby's healthy birth (which is too far away still), nothing else will help you feel as much peace.

And, I personally, am very excited about your ultrasound. I can't wait to find out if the baby is a boy or a girl.