Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother's Day

So, Mother's Day has changed in meaning to me over the years. Obviously for most of my life it's been a celebration of my own mother. She's such and amazing person, and I really admire her. I miss her a lot too. I'm SO excited for her visit in June!

I guess my most poignant Mother's Day memories though, are from 2006. That was my due date with Cora (May 14...but I always told people I was due on Mother's Day). That day was so very hard.

Mother's Day 2007 was hard too, in a different way. I was a month away from delivering Erin, and starting to get very paranoid. And I couldn't figure out how the day applied to me. I had delivered one baby that I couldn't hold in my arms, and I had another one that hadn't yet been born. I was a mother twice over, but I wasn't really a mommy yet.

Last year, Matt was in Oklahoma, so I was a single mother. It didn't really feel like anything but a normal day.

So today....today was my first "real" Mother's Day. Today my sweet little girl cuddled on the couch with me and smothered me with sloppy kisses, and then fell asleep on my lap. Today, I am enjoying every second of those babies I have here with me.

So while I didn't get to see a little girl standing up front singing today, it's okay. I'll get to hear her sing someday.

And Erin sings to me all the time anyway. =p


Oh, and Happy Mother's Day to all my friends and family. Especially my Angel Mom friends, to whom this day hurts. (hugs) to all of you

2 comments:

Aubri said...

Have I mentioned lately how much I love you? Thank you for being my sister, in a very real sense of the word. I am so grateful for you and the beautiful prose you create. I miss you.

Young Family said...

I'm glad you had a better Mother's Day this year. I was able to visit my baby's grave this year which was such a help. Oh how I wish I could hold him in my arms just one more time.