Okay, so this isn't really a sad post. Not for me anyway. As I've mentioned before, I belong to a stillbirth support forum. We are very close on the board, as I think you can imagine. Lately, we've had a pregnancy boom, and it's been very exciting.
But today has been devastating. We've had two losses, and for some reason it's really hitting me hard. One is Natalie. Her Devin (whom she conceived via IVF) was stillborn last March at 36 weeks. After 2 more failed IVF attempts, she got pregnant though FET (frozen embryo transfer). Today she found out it's ectopic. She's having surgery to remove her right fallopian tube this afternoon.
The second is Heather. She lost her Marshall last March too, at nearly 20 weeks. She's nearly 20 weeks now, and today found out her baby has anencephaly (note, if you click on the anencephaly link...there are pictures). She now has to make the heartbreaking decision of whether to terminate the pregnancy now, or wait until the baby dies on its own. I can't imagine how heartbreaking that decision must be.
So...why do I deserve to have two flawless pregnancies after Cora? How do I deserve to get pregnant so easily? What did I do to become so blessed?
How can the world be that unfair?