Sunday, February 22, 2009

I dreamed last night....

...that Patrick was stillborn too. The dream was probably just resurfacing memories of Cora's labor and delivery, but in the dream it was Patrick. I woke up with "Oh God, please, not again!" on my lips.

I woke up to Erin crying, and an excruciating headache. I went ahead and just brought Erin to bed with me. I needed my reminder that babies are born healthy, and that they come home with you.

So I'm skipping church, because my head still just HURTS and I feel really sick to my stomach, and I don't think I can handle Erin in sacrament meeting by myself right now.

Matt's plane comes in at 2pm. I would love to go into labor after that.

5 comments:

Aubri said...

oh that's so scary! ::hugs::

April said...

My name is April I am an angel mommy too. What a horrible dream, I am sorry you had to have that. But I am so glad you have been able to have a healthy baby girl and what a great reminder that you can hold her and know that babies can live. I will pray that you can have a wonderful labor, it looks like its soon. I know we'll get to raise our babies again. Your in my prayers. I lost my baby Harry at 21weeks in October.

HRHSpence said...

And your mom still dreams about that one tornado she was involved with.

It's just a nightmare, pay it no mind. But recurring dreams are a pain, aren't they?

Courtney said...

You poor thing I can only imagine what it was like having a dream like that.

*hugs*

Natalie.Rob.Branson said...

Hoping you'll never have another dream like that. I haven't had any yet and pray I never do! I am glad that you had your sweet little one there to snuggle...what a beautiful reminder that babies do live. I'll pray your new little addition arrives soon!